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2006-02-24T13:20:00.000+08:00

i wonder how i remember all these passwords. okay, i've changed blog again.

www.reverberating-footsteps.blogspot.com

now, RELINK ME :D

2005-07-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

change blogg! hahahahah. www.unsatisfied-me.blogspot.com

2005-07-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

this is nice but sad :))

If you're afraid to love a person because offriendship, you have two choices: either tell whatyou feel and let the love take place or hide thefeeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

It's hard for two people to love each other whenthey live in two different worlds but when thesetwo worlds collide and become one, that's what youcall magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship.One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and becauseyou are my friend I care, and because I care, Ilove you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make mehappy? To think that I have everything else, I getwhat I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad'cause it's you i can't have. I can't choose whoI'm gonna love, but I also can't love who choosesto love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you asmuch as I can't blame you for not learning to love me.
I'm sorry if you can't love me the way youloved the one before me, so I'll let you go findhim/her and hope someday you'll see that the onetrue love you're looking for was the one who setyou free.

"HOW CAN I SAY GOODBYE TO SOMEONE I NEVER HAD?
WHY DO TEARS FAL FOR SOMEONE WHO
WAS NEVER MINE?
WHY IS THAT I MISS SOMEONE I WAS NEVER
WITH AND I ASKED WHY I LOVE SOMEONE
WHO'S LOVE WAS NEVER MINE?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this:
Have you really cared for someone more than youexpected?

Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of allthe pain?

Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whisperssomeone else's name? Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone youlove rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don'texpect that person to love you back the sameamount. One of you will be head, the other behind.It's either you catch up or the other waits.

When you love, you must not accept anything inreturn, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, forif you expect happiness, you're not loving butusing. True love hears what is not spoken, andunderstands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longeryou stay the harder it is to leave and you cannever go without leaving your prints behind.

Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.

Love them like a river because a river flows forever.

Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'causelove doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if youdon't follow your heart, in the end you will cryeven more for not giving love a chance.

Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,but keep in mind that there's someone who'll bewilling to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is tolet her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing.(This goes for gals as well).

2005-07-06T19:29:00.000+08:00

BOO.! today is such a WONDERFUL day! hahaa. we won for the highest class last month. or rather, the month of june for READ-A-THON! hahaha. yup. then we got to skip lessons! hahaha. welll, mrs yap announced the results today. and she was like saying: this class has a history. hahaha. and we all knew it was US! 2M-errs.! don't we rawk? haha.

yup. gave out excuse letters for c.div next week! whee! and today, well, i shant say it is such a wonderful day. because we werent excused for p.e.! how retarded is that? and we had to do p.e. in uniform! we're suppossed to be excused la. and mr.ong didn't allowed us to. haha. owells. just had to do p.e. and play rugby. i don't like rugby. it's for guys? HAAH. ya. for ROUGH people! whee.! yupp.

skipped geog,lit and PHSICS today! yay! sigh. i wonder how we're going to catch up. haha. we've missed the whole week of physics lessons. haha. monday and wednesday! haha. how nice is that la. heh. owells. must be the highest class next month too! or rather, this month! yay! ya. then we can skip lessons again! hahahah. owells. if everyone gives $20, we'll have $600. then, we can go! haha. i think we'll be the highest class. heh.

yup. then after school, ac guys came and ask the bowlers whether we wanted to buy tickets for their whatever concert thing? ya. haha. but owells, it happens to fall on the day of DRAMA NIGHT! hahah. ya. then coz we were in yellow, we were obviously BOWLERS. don't we rawk? YEAH! haha. ya. then it so happen that, that guy is a bowler too. then he was like: do you know tan chng kiat? haha. ya. then everyone laughed la. DARN LOUDLY. haha. everyone was looking at us. HAHA. ya. then we were like. ehh. ya. thenn he was like: ohh. can you give me a ride? HAHA.ya. we were like: you can folllow the bus. hahah. darn funny la. we weere like so darn sacastic! HAHAHA. owells.

i like today only coz we got to skip lessons and we went to orchard road. haha. WE SHOPPPED! shoopiing is NICE! whee!!! : )))

2005-07-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

i had school today! haha. it was boring! ya. first thing in the morning, had to fy taukwa. quoted as taugay and taufik's relative by iris. haha. ya. sigh. what else did we have? oh ya. TING XIE! sighh. it was horrible? haha. yaa. then ya. shit! i just remembered i have book test tomorrow. and it's open book. sigh. i never read! haha. yup. how stupid.! heh.

owells. then had tuition in the afternoon then had piano lesson after that. ya. was fun though. i was like about to sleep during tuition la. SO BORING! english whats. hahaha. yaa. then slack for a while then had piano. haha. PIANO WAS NICE TODAY! i didnt practice but my teacher said i played very welll. HAHAHAH. how dumb is that? HAH. ya.

i got training tomorrow. ya! hahah. then saturday also have. yupp. owells. tomorrow is going to be a nice day? NO. shit got physcis. i dont like physics i must say. haha. it's BORING. very boring. hahaha. yup. sigh. i wonder what's left for me. i wanna see my future! and everyone else's future.! ahaha. i wanna know what is going to happen!? don't you think that's fun? HAHA. i'm MAD. very high today lehhh. mag kept saying stuff.! HAH. i was so pissed? haha. and the TIX thing. hahaa. i dont want to spell it out. ya. haha. mag said i was MAD and HIGH. and this was due to coz i'm in LOVE. what the hell la. DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. i don't see a link. ya. ahah. she probably was HIGH-er than me. ya. that's whyy. heh.

2005-07-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

owells. today, woke up at 7 plus. ya! couldnt sleep. why? coz my ears were painful! AHHH.. they are darn painful today. dont know why. but owells. went back to b*dazzle to change my earrings. sigh. why must schools set such strict rulles?! and dont allow us to wear a small earring with a small little gemstone on it. arghh. then had to change it to the plain ones. owells. the piercings were free but the earrings were like so ex? ya. i spent $160 in total. heh. times two! my sister also. haha. ya. $320. that's a lot? haha. just to pierce your eears! ahahhaa. yup.

sighh. i cannot bathe in peace! yar. and the alcohol sticks! ahhhh. it makes my ears more painful although i never apply any on my ears.! the smell just has the effect.! haha. yup. then rush for training. had MAGdonalds for lunchh! ya. on the way to victors. had training then followed huierh back to her house and slightly later, we watched white chicks. ya. DARN FUNNY.! the way they eat. EWWW. darn disgusting.! ahha. ya. then haad gathering. sigh. the food was GOOD.! eexxxceeelennt! yes. excellent. ya. our prep. talk was like fun? i don't know how to spell. but anyways, ya. then iris and jo were doing this funny dance? i think it's the DUCK DANCE. got CHICKEN DANCE, DUCK DANCE then what's next?! FROG DANCE! hahah. my dance! wheee. i'm mad la.! hahaha. owells.

there's school tomorrow. HOW? dont wanna go to school. ya. owells. i feel like staying at home and pretend to be sick. but this way, i'll miss alot of lessons.! yar. the WHOLE DAY. and next week, got competition, then we'll miss lessons tooo! argh. owells. got test next week.! ya.!sigh. HOW?

2005-07-03T16:54:00.000+08:00

i went to pierce my ears today! hahaa. sigh. have to buy another pair of earrings. arghh. coz mg don't allow us to wear earrings with gemstones. ya. sigh. they didnt have stock whats. what can i do?! hahaha. hmmmm. well, wasnt that pain la. haha. a little bit onlyy. heh. yup. sigh. have to wait for another one month then i can take it out and wear other earrings. haha. yup. how to sleep tonight.?! haah.

hmmm. after that, went shopping around wistma. then saw xin and min. then went to topshop. then saw elvina. HAHA. such a coincidence. yup. heh. yup. i wanted to go watch botm today. but i didnt. owells. i wondered who played. heh. i'm bored. sigh. have to bake brownies. yup. for tomorrow's partyy. at huierh's house! whee.! hahaha.

2005-07-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

today is saturday! it's sunday tomorrow. sigh. i wanted to go watch bowler of the month tomorrow. but owells. i cannot. i'm going to pierce my ears. hahaha. coz i told my mother i wanted to pierce my ears. haha. she's like fine! we'll go tomorrow.! heh. that's so nice! hahaa.

owells. sorry iris. i cannot accompany you! : )) amanda and nicholas came over today. for dinner and durian for supper. or rather, a fruit supper. ya. durian was nice la. only ate two SMALL ones. nice though. but i ate all the strawberries.! haaha. the strawberries were sour but SWEET! with sugar la.! hahaha. yupp.

tuition today was so slackky.! hahah. didnt do much. haha. didnt feel like it. hhaa. and i really want to say that physics is really boring and lifeless. ya. ahha. that's what i can say about it.!

it's so BORING. nothing interesting. unlike bio! i lurve bio. chem, hmmm. okay la. haha. yup. owells. i wanna go talk to my mummy. HAHA. byeee : ))

2005-06-30T18:30:00.000+08:00

today is thursday! how fast. the week is coming to an endd. whee.! yup. haha. owells. today in school, we had four periods of mrs.lim's lesson. quite boring though. yup.haha. but it was fun telling zhijing stories. haha. though sometimes, she make such funny comments.! haha. me and agnes were laughing la! haha.

owells. today after schoool, i came home and guess what.? the pig's back! haha. i fell aslepp on the sofa upon watching tv. yup. haha. how dumb rights? everyday come home, i'll sleep. except on training days la. ya. haha. heh. yup. haha. i told my tuition teacher that. she started laughing. time flies very fast! like one and a half hours was over like so fast. like one minute has just passed! haha. did loads of work though. arent i GUAI? hahaa. owells. tuition was fun. ya. tuition has always been fun. but not the work part. heh. like DUH? haha.

2005-06-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

today is such a nice day! but a pathetic one. haha. a tiring one too.! haha.

training has been hard. but i know it's all for my own good. yup! and uncle john taught me the right way to do drills today. yup. lalalalalallalaa. tralallalalalala.! it's christmas! hahaa.

i'm MAD. sigh. it's to just make me happy. sighh. hahahaha. michelle told me that there's a new teacher in mg which has the same name as me! HOW NICE rights? haha. my CLONE? hah. more like i'm her clone, coz i'm younger. haha. i am looking forward to meeting her.! it sounds funn. haha. i owe loads of people letters. yup. haha. vic.lim, michelle and yar. the rest, i think they're going to write to me first! hahaha.

zhiyun can sing very welll! gosh! I LOVE HER VOICE.! i'm so jealouuss! ahhhhhhh.... owellls. i'm mad la.! haha.

2005-06-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

today is tuesday! the second day of schooll. yup. school has been fun so far? haha. had home econs lesson today. haha. darn funny la. hannah and iris. sigh. some people should know what happened. haha. the MILKSHAKE wasnt nice at all. so MILKY. ewww. worst than the milky way. ahaha. what a comparison. ahaha. owells. then had lesson today. haha. i have finally found a way to answer standard form questions! haha. i have finally understooodd.! haha. that's such a great achievement. haha.

i'm so mad today. that's coz i'm HAPPY. i really want to say thank you to you people to brightening up my days. yup. thank youu! :)) hahaha. i have training tomorroww. yupp. that's nicee. haha. owells. i better goo. whee! lurveyou. mwahh <33

2005-06-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

sighh. these few days have been quite okay so far. yup. haha. bowling camp is over. it was funn :)) haha.

woke up early today! VERY EARLY! haha. 8.30. then went to warren. was late though. ahah. suppossed to be there at 9.30 but i went there at 9.45. yar. haha. overslept whats. haha. so tiredd. haha. yarr.

today's under 21 tournament was terrible. had 9 pin tap and my highest game is only 205! how bad is that la. arghh. sigh. i just wonder. i'm just lousy. yup. owells. my pillow is my best friend. haha. the bestest friend. i know i can talk to my pillow. coz i know it would never tell anyone my secrets. haha. yup. i lurve you pillow. haha. saw loads of people today. haha. yar. people i have not seen for a REALLY LONG TIME. hahaha. yup. haha.

sigh. i have finally passed chinglee's letter to her! ahha. though chingyee took itt. haha. sighh. i lurve YOU. i wonder who the YOU is. haah. owells. i'm mad. whee. i'm happy.

sigh. i must LEARN how to look on the bright side of life. haha. sigh. there will always be a bright side. yar. but i dont know where that bright side is. haha. i am still finding where that bright side is. haha.

2005-06-21T13:49:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9.24 today. my mother wanted me to go down to meet my sister's tuition teacher who is going to be my tuition teacher too. that'll be next week. ya. haha. tuition on tuesday. at 3. then i'll hhave piano lesson on tuesday too. at 5.15. how rushh. arghh.

then went to bathe then went down. saw the tuition teacher. had breakfast first. then i arranged my lesson with her. yar. she's rather nice but scaryy. pretty tooo. haha.

sigh. i have loads of work to do today. LOADS. haha. have piano today. and i havent practice. owells. what to do? just have to complete it. yup. and school stuuff. i havent done the darn history propaganda poster thing yet! sigh. i've done everything except for the poster. owellls. hols are coming to an end. yup. how? sigh. i have not done much during this holiday. i have never done much during the june holidays. haha. coz i have training! haha. yup. sigh. c.div is coming! AHHHHH.. i'm scared i wont play. i dont think i would though. so many people are so much better than mee. owells. i shant say who. yup.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINGYEE! hahaha.

2005-06-20T18:32:00.000+08:00

i'm really bored! bored bored bored! HAHA. i have two posts today. owells.

it's blue top on wednesday for training. yup. and i don't know if i can bowl. haha. my arm is injuredd. stupid rocks. sigh. it's actually my fault la. haha. who ask me?! go and throw rocks into the sea. and then injure it. haha. stupid me. owells.

the waves are nice. and so is the beach. very dirty leh. haha. had fun though. but saturday night was the best! BEST BEST BEST! sat on the beach and look at the waves for so long! first time i did that leh. then my jie, amanda told me all her stories. and i told her mine! haha. but obviously, she had more stories than me. yup. haha. i wanna go back! HAHA. yup. back to where we went. so fun. every morning get to see the beach and stuff and then can play there and pick up seashells. and then throw rocks. haha. it's hard to throw rocks into the sea and make it hop you know. hard. yup. haha. i tried many times before i succeddedd. but nicholas succedded on his first throw! how smart. haha. he knew all the tricks and ways to do it. never tell me :((

haha. at night, no stars to see. only a few. probably coz it was going to rain that night. yar. haha. and i could still sit on the beach and look at the waves. haa. high tide is nice :)) it's like a tsunamii! hahaa. how coooll. haha. I WANNA GO BACK. BACK BACK BACK. but that'll be like so lonng. haha.

played mahjong there EVERYDAY. hahaa. nothing to do then we play mahjong! haha. and then we found out that we've always played the wrong way.haha. we play the opposite way. as in the direction of turns. i think. yar. instead of clockwise, we go anti-clockwise. hahaa. how stupid of us. haha. mahjong is fun! haha. very fun! haha. i'm hungryy.

2005-06-20T11:56:00.000+08:00

wheee! i'm home. and i'm boredd. hahaa.

the chalet at changi was rather fun. i did have fun and i didnt have fun. haha. the beach was dirtyy. but the water was reallly cooolll and the waves were like so nice! yar.

the minute you open the doorr, you see the beach and the waves. yar. how nice! saturday was the best thoughh. had BBQ partyy. with my uncle and cousins and some other people. i dont really know them. so i made new friends! yup. that night, i sat on the sandy beach and stared at the waves. it was so cooolll. i was with amanda. yar. wwe were like talking and talking. haha. and we never got up until around 11 plus. yar. so it's like we sat there for hours. but obviously, we were alone. so it was rather convinent to say stuff. coz the parents weerent there. yup. it was so cooll. sigh. we couldnt see the sunset from there though. yar. not clear. and then sunrise, we're always late. not late, then early. how stupid. so we gave up on watching the sunrise. haha. first two nights was fun sleeping in the tent then stupid fluffy urined in there. then had to sleep in the rooomm. sigh. didnt have enough sleep. COULDNT SLEEP AT ALL. coz we were like sitting down. and then like we couldnt lie down coz there werent enough space and stuff. yar. aha. how STUPID. owells. but the beach was dirtyy.VERY DIRTYY.

now i'm home. no more beach to look at. but i would want to go back there againn! once again! to watch the waves. hahaa. when it's high tide, it's so nice. it's like a tornado in the water! or rather a smaller version of a tsunami? hahaa. so funn! hahaha. the weather was so hott! arghhh. HOT HOT HOT! it only rained last night. haha. that's why it was so cold. and i was wearing shorts to sleep la. frezzing coldd! ahhhhhh.. haha. owellls. don't wanna go on anymoree. haha.

2005-06-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

sigh. i wanna say goodbye to everyone.

i'm going to a very faraway place. where i can see the SEA and sit on the BEACH and watch the STARS.

that's so nice. it's just like a paradise. a dreamlandd. owells. i'm going to have fun.

bye guys! hahaha :))

2005-06-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

i smeellll better than FLUFFY! yay! hahaha.

i'm stupid.
i'm dumb.
i'm lame.
i'm jealous.
i'm nervous.
i'm gullible.

I'M JUST STUPID! cannot even tell the difference. sigh.

had piano lesson this morning. sigh. wasnt that bad though. yar.
had lunch at home.
then went out with douglas and NICHOLAS! haha. we watched madagascar. yar.
don't know if i spelt it correctly. haha. yar.
rather fun though. then went to beach road to get all the goodiess. yar. haha. all the chocolates! and the CHIPS. yar. then went to cold storage to buy groceries. haha. had extra help though. haha. two more pair of hands. yup. they were so naughtyy. so noisyy! haha. but they were fuunnn. haha. whee.
had dinner with them at home. haha. nicholas so pai kia. haha. sigh. he put his leg on the chair like those people in the coffeeshop. haha. then my mother was like : ehh. this is not a coffeeshop kk. and you're not an ah-beng or somethingg. haha. everyone started laughing la. HOW FUNNY.

douglas was telling me that nicholas was fat. haha. i was like. hmmmm. all nicholasS are fat? hahaha. how dumb. owells. madagascar was FUNNY. haha. very funnyy. nicholas laaughed like crazy la. haha.
my horoscope today!

no wonder you feel like you're sitting pretty at the center of the universe -- people are so drawn to you that a happy group forms around you wherever you go. enjoy the lovefest.

this is SO NOT TRUE! haha.

2005-06-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

i guess i can never be back to normal again. my life is so miserable and depressingg. sigh. my parents dont seem to be talking to each other. they're like 'enemies' ? they dont talk to each other when they see each other. then one comes back so early and the other so late.

this kind of family, i guess it's going to be fallen apart very soonn. how?

well. to all people out there. if i like dao you or something, i dont mean it yar? coz i'm jjust depressedd.

taugay: sorry. but i dont think i can change back to my usual self already. yar. you can say everything i've told you. coz i really dont care anymore.

it doesnt help when i cry. a lil' bit only. but it doesnt help me to recover.

i'll never be able to step out of this dark rooom. because everywhere's pitch dark. i cannot find my way out.

as for others, well. if you think i've made you angry and done you wrong, then i'll just have to apologise. everything is my fault yar?

i dont want to carry on anymore. can we just end it here? it's not worth it.

2005-06-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

i wish everyone best wishes. one day i wont be here. and i know no one is going to be sad. yar. i dont know when that day would be. but all the best. yar?

2005-06-15T20:25:00.000+08:00

sighh. i guess i will have to take it on chocolates. i've been eating non-stop. dont know why. sigh. water coming out from my eyes would make me hungry-er? haha. owells.

sigh. thinking about the last post, i guess people will think that i'm trying to gain sympathy. well. not all but some. yar. i shant say who. ya.

no one would ever believe me again. am i at fault? i think so. i despise myself. for being foolish to fall into your trap. admit la. i'm just dumb. sigh. seeing myself going to have a brokenn` family, i think i rather die then to face reality. i cannot take this anymore. everyday i wake up with tears. my eyes are puffy. just like a pufferfish. everyone seems to be angry with me. why? i think everything i have done is wrong. yar. it's my fault then. i shouldnt have trusted them. and luckily i didnt tell them my other secrets. owells. i cannot face reality. yes. i cannot. at most, i'll just die. but i cannot leave this world without completing my stuff. ya. i cannot leave my parents alonee.

i'm confused. i dont know what to do. tell me what to do. sigh. my life is totally miserable and depressingg. no point livingg.

i MUST cheerrr upp : )) cheer upp. whee. but inside there, i'm still depressed.

2005-06-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

sighh. i woke up late todayy. haha. then got scolded. but i wasnt late.! haha. i reached victors at 8.30. then ehh. it was all darkkk. haha. yar.so nice. then when the lanes were on, it was so nice. it was like in wonderland or somethingg. yar. aha.

training today was okay. yar. but i couldnt spare that blardy pin 10 and 2. yar. haha. coz of someone there. actually, i cannot blame anyonee. sigh. tell people tales. think i dont know. they're not true la. but she tell those people who are so gulliblee. and they believed laa. how stupid and dumb. why would i want to say anything about you people? think i have nothing better to do issit? owells. i am going to ignore ignore and ignore her. yes. and just train hard. VERY HARD. i'm going to miss two trainings. yar. how sad. on friday and on monday. ahaha. yar. i wonder if anyone is going to read this but never mindd. she can tell for all i care. yar. and if those people who she told tales to is reading this, then i just have to tell you that those stuff arent true. up to you to believe it or not. yar. haha. but i guess you would rather believe her than believe me. yup. who cares la. haha. i can still lead my life without you people. it doesnt make any difference to mee. coz i'll always be depressed.

sigh. i guess my parents are going to file for a divorce? and i'm going to have a brokenn family. sigh. this is the third time already. but the first two times, they didnt file for one coz of us. yar. my sisters. and ME. i'm going to have a brokenn familly. that's how NICE. yar. like reall. i have enough problems already. stopp adding more. arghhh. crying just DONT HELP. yar. and i wanna say thank you to those people who has been cheering me upp. sigh.

everytime i talk to you, you'll purposely call that person. or tell me you're talking to that person. sigh. why likethat? i guess i have to give up. i cannot tolerate this kind of life anymore. and especially, YOU. everyday i listen to the same songg. over and over again. and it's never endingg. and i think of you. i think of other things. what more can i think of ? sigh.

it's best to end my life now rather than to carry on and suffer more. that's how i feel now? haha. doubt so. worst than that. but i am not going to be foolish and end my life likethat. yar. i still have other stuff to doo. sigh. and for goodness sake my dear kor, i am not going to poison your foodd. yar. haha. that's not what i want to do. haha.

i want life to be like the past. it was so beautiful till you came into my life and destroyed all my happy days. YOU TOOK MY HAPPY DAYS AWAY. why did you come backk? WHY? i shan't blame everything on you. it's just me. my tolerance level is so low. hopeless case. owells. i just have to accept fate i guess. i doubt my life is going to get any better.

sighh. i dont think anyone is going to read thiss. haha. after crying, i feel much better. wait. CANNOT CRY ANYMORE. this will mean that i admit defeat. owells. no one is going to knoww. so i dont care. haha.

HONEY STARS CAN HELP TO CHEER ME UP! hahaha. how lame. heh.

my horoscope todayyy.

now you're talking -- and everyone's all ears. even when you're just thinking out loud, you're innovative and fascinating. Don't be surprised if someone takes you aside to ask for advice of an interesting nature.

rather trueee : ))

2005-06-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10 today. yaa. sigh. had tuition at 11.30. supposed to have it at 10.30 la. but my tuition teacher came late. it was the last day of tuition today. yaa. owells. i slept again today. i always sleep in the afternoon onee. arghh. why arhh? must be coz i didnt have enough sleep last night. but i sleep at the same time every night lehh. sigh. when school reopens then how? i wont get to sleep until like around 12 plus. ya. haha.

i have training tomorrow. and i am not going outt. sigh. i want to. but dont want la. should stay at home to studyy. and like yar. zhen's sending me home! haha. i have TWO MORE DAYS! to the chalet thingg. how nice. actually more than that but hahaha. yar. three days la. sigh. if two weeks of holidays can pass so fast, then how come 3 days cannot pass THAT fast? sighh.

2005-06-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

my horoscope todayy.

Shout out your two favorite words: road trip! Do whatever it takes to make a mini-getaway. Even if it's just a trip across town, you'll feel all the greatness of being on the road.

i don't understanndd.

2005-06-12T15:36:00.000+08:00

went out for dinner last night to mandrin hotel. the food wasnt that nice. yaa. haha. last time was nicer. yup. then went to heerren. bought two cds and two shirts. haha. ya. everywhere's having a salee! hahaa. all discountedd. how nice. but for clothes arhh. quite ugllyy. yup. haha. owellss.

woke up at 9.51 this morning. had breakfast, bathed and then went to warreen to train. haha. my average was 155. yaa. i could have bowled a 200 game la. if i didn't open those 3 frames! then the score was 188. how stupidd. AHHHHHHH... must concentrate. yupp. didnt see anyone else there. there was club training there tooo. yupp. didnt want to go for club training. very boring one. haha. yup. then had chicken burger at the poolside cafe. yupp. sigh. my life is so boringg. it's already 3.57. and it's sunday today. i'm suppossed to bathe fluffyyy. but i have not done so. HOW? haha. i'm too lazy la. haha. maybe i'l bathe her tomorroww. ya. coz we're going to chalet on friday then dont wanna bathe her so early so she wont stinkk. yup. i'm boredd. but i have LOADS of work to do la. how stupidd. haha. owells. i better go noww. i still lurvee that songg. FLY AWAY! hahaha.

2005-06-11T16:49:00.000+08:00

my horoscope today!

your sense of humor and boundless optimism make you everybody's favorite, and having people fight to sit next to you is pretty great. take time to talk to someone quiet; they may be just as funny as you are.

i'm not happy today lehh. today's one is not very ttruee. haha.

2005-06-11T16:40:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10.38 today. how stupidd. then had to rush coz i had to get ready for tuition at 11.30! and i havent memorised my science notes yet! aahhhh.. so must go memorise and bathe. i was rushing like mad la. but of course, i didnt manage to memorise everything.

i memorised DIGESTION though. haha. the easiest. and then during class, i memorised ecology. haha. I LURVE BIO. it's so freaking interestingg. chemistry is NOT NICE. physics arhh. dont really like it. guys can score better in physics. gurls i dont know. that's why my tuition teacher told mee. how dumbb. haha. owells.

i'm going out tonight! to HMV. to buy CDs. very long never buy CDs alreadyy. like for months? yaa. ever since i got limewire. then can downloadd. whee.

i'm scaredd. i havent done my holiday homework yett. like i did only one zhou ji. and then ehh. learnt standard form. which is pretty confusingg. and then ehh. ecology for bioo. then revise digestion. that's SO LITTLE la. for two weekss.

sigh. i havent started on eh. chinese. geog. history. lit. ya. then still go PROJECT WORK. have to put everything together or something likethat la. ya. how frustratingg. but i will have to do it eventually rights? ya. so.. better to do it now rather than to wait till school reopens and then have to rush then no time coz competition is on the second week of term 3! two weeks have passedd. ONE MONTH! i only have one month to train and bowl bettterr. then i can play for c.divs. i'm very scared i won't get to bowl lehh. HOW?

sigh. and my studies. i have to set aside time for my studies too lehh. sure got tests in the first two weeks of school one rights? seee. that's why i'm starting to read up on my subjects firstt. for history it's the third weeek. and i think competition has just ended. and the teacher must have gone through the chapter when we weren't aroundd. i don't understand historyy lehh. as in like i cannot score and remember stuff! YAR. owells. i'm so pessimisticc. haha.

2005-06-10T17:16:00.000+08:00

i just came back from training. time passes so fast. liike in a split second, 2 hours is gonee. haha. then went down to eat chicken rice. then sat at the couch and waited for popo. haha. ya. i was half-awake. haha. then i went back to schoooll. i went back to schooll. how incredible. haha. i found my blue shirt! haha. i left it in school in my locker last timee. then never take backk. ya. haha.

sighh. i'm stil depressed? haha. ya. i cannot blog that i'm depressedd. yes. cannot. petrina says cannott. and i have to be happy today. hahaa. if not others would be sad. hmph. they purposely one la. arghh. owells. i'm happy? no. i'm not. i may look happy. but i'm not happy inside. i'm still living in my own world. living my own life. a life that is meaningless. ya. and it's not worth livingg. haha. owells. my life is miserabble.

2005-06-09T16:09:00.000+08:00

i think i didnt say what happened yesterday during training! freaking funnyy. haha.

uncle john changed my style yesterday. now i have to take five steps.! yup. haha. so i won't have so much space to slide. yup. haha. then my right leg will have to go more to the left. yup. thenn after one of the throws, uncle john asked me to put my leg somewhere lla. then zhiyun rights. i think she wanted to ask uncle john something. then she thought uncle john was talking to her. then when uncle john said : put your leg here! put your leg here! then zhiyun put her leg there! hahahah. DAMN FUNNY!

i was like: what on earth are you doing? block my way! hahaha. then uncle john was like: NOT YOU la. hahaha. then i started laughingg. then i told huierh and xin what happened. haha. THEY COULDNT BOWL after that. SUPER FREAKING FUNNY la. haha. she's the best la. heh.

but i am stil depressed. though something funny happened yesterday. yuppp. sighh. woke up at 10 plus today. then i messaged my piano teacher whether can change timing coz i woke up late then i never practise. heh. then i asked if she could come later. yaa. then she came at 2.30. yup. haha.

was talking to cher before that. she was SUPER FUNNY. cher is MY therapist now! haha. coz i said i was depressed. then she said she would be my therapist. haha. then i complained to her then sharred stuff with her and ya. haha. she made me smillee! :)) thanks cher! LURVEYOU.

i wonder what's going to happen later. i wanna turn the clockk! not backwards but forward. so that i can see what's there for me in my last days of my life? sigh. i don't want to die but i want to. as in like. life is meant for us to live one rights. ya. but then the people and things happening around us make our lives so miserablee. sigh. my life is so screwed :((

2005-06-08T20:21:00.000+08:00

my horoscope today. sigh.

some weird energy is afoot, and it's likely to have a bearing on relationships. Don't be afraid to put the questions that are on your mind into words; biting your tongue just hurts.

quite true lehh :))

2005-06-08T20:04:00.000+08:00

why must things turn out to be this way? i shouldnt have gone today. like what the freaking hell la. you just had to rub it in. what's your freaking problem la. argh. i really hate youu. I HATE YOU! arghh.

i wanna sleepp. sleep and sleep. and never wake upp. how hard i try, i'll never reach my goall. it's impossible la. dont you get it? why isnt anyone in singapore? everyone is in perth. not perth then in other parts of the world. i'm like the only one in singapore. sigh. i wannt everyone back. why can't life used to be what it was last time? life was so nice. so fun and yar. everything was perfect. totally perfect. untill you came into my life.

i dont wanna say anymore. i just feel like dyingg. depressedd. anything that has got to do with suicide starts with 'D'. ya. see. dying. depression. ya. that's all i can think for now.

iris and agnes are coming back tomorrow. yay! from perth. yup. hope they buy something for me! haha. sigh. the first HAHA in my post today. yup. i'm really depressed. since like ehh. the time i went lunch with mag and tong. ya. i don't know why. everything just came to my mindd. all the possibilities. and kevin teo can still come and tell me stuff and make me feel worst. i'm like going to not care about what he says. ya. ya la. pro-ded la. sigh. so zhaii. hmphs. i want to diee. DIE DIE DIE!

i'm depressed. and i want YOU to save me. i know it's impossible la. sigh. forget it then. arghh.

oh yes. before i forget. I AM SORRY TAUGAY.

2005-06-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARR!!! I LURVE YOUU! MWAH! <33

i'm mad la. haha. owells. had tuition today. for 2 hours and 45 minutes! how's that? terrible! then had piano lesson! HOW boringg!! ahhhh. i'm going for training tomorrow. and maybe going to watch youth challenge! whee!! i'm excitedd! hahaha.

2005-06-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

sighh. i'm very depressedd!! ahhhhhhh! i cannot balance when i bowl! shit la. how? then uncle john made me put weights on my right leg for the ehh. last 15 minutes of training? yaa. haha. i just wonder how jo can bowl with it. haha. poor jo. haha.

sigh. i woke up at 7 today! i thought the alarm clock was ringing in my dreams! ahha. suppossed to wake up at 6.45 but somehow i just continued to think that i was dreaming so i didnt stop it. heh. how dumb. haha. friendster is SUPER SUPER slow today! why arh? haha. i'm very bored at home. wanted to go watch south zone today. but then rights. i have tuition today at 5, so eh. decided not to. besides, i have not finished my homework. owells. i'm in deep shit. i havent finished my homework yet. haha. i wonder how they're bowling now! haha.

one week of school holiday has passedd. how fast. sigh. i don't want it to pass so quickly! howw? and sadly, i'm going to miss two trainings. ya. i doubt i can go. ya. i'm in singapore though. haha. just going to a chalet to celebrate father's day! HOW NICE! haha. then we'll have our own private swimming pool and eh. private bungalow facing the beach. so nice. everyday you wake up, you can go to the beach to take a walk or something. haha. my dream house! haha. but unfortunately, i'll never get to stay in such a nice place. haha. no need to work arh? hahaha. i dont wanna work when i grow up lehh. but it's rather funn. haha. but LOADS OF STRESSS. just be a teacher can liao. it's the easiest i think? or open a bakery shop! then bake brownies! hahaa. how stupid. haha. i'll see how when i grow up. haha.

when can i have my own freedom? like ya. i dont wannt to go out with my family members anymore leh. NOT FUN one. cannot shop all i want. but that's where i can get money from! haha. so mean. heh. i wanna go outt! like NOW?! but i have tuition. haha. sigh. i better go do work noww. haha. seeya. MWAH!

i miss agnes!! ahhhhhhhh!!! i want her to be back soon! whee!

2005-06-05T14:33:00.000+08:00

i like this songg! whee.

Oh
I, I..... I

I wanna be bad with you, baby
I, I, I, I

I wanna be bad with you, baby

Do you
Understand what I need, need
From you
Just let me be the girl to show
You, you
Everything that you can be
Is everything that I can be
(I wanna be)

My turn
Let me let you know that I,
I can't promise that I won't do that
So, boy
Say the time and place
'cause you make me wanna misbehave

Chorus
I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad look so good
I've got things on my mind
I never thought I would
I, I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad feel so good
I'ma losing all my cool
I'm about to break the rules
I, I wanna be bad

I wanna be bad with you, baby
I, I, I, I, (with you yeah yeah yeah yeah)
I wanna be bad with you, baby

What's up?
Tell me what to do, how to be
Teach me
All your words from A to Z
But I
Don't want your other girl to see
That you're messing 'round with me, no
Should I boy
Tell ya what I got is what ya want
Tell, tell me, do I, I turn you on?
I don't want no one judging me

Chorus
I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad look so good - ooh ooh, no no no
I've got things on my mind (mi-i-i-ind)
I never thought I would

Never thought I would - I, I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad feel so good
I'ma losing all my cool
I'm about to break the rules - about to break the rules boy

I, I wanna be bad
I wanna be bad with you, baby

I, I, I, I (I wanna be bad with you)
I wanna be bad with you, baby

I, I, I, I
I wanna be bad with you, baby

I, I, I, I (I wanna be bad)
I wanna be bad with you, baby

I, I, I, I,
I, I yeah

I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad look so good - you make bad look so good
I've got things on my mind
I never thought I would - I never thought, I never thought I would

I, I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad feel so good - you make bad look so good
I'ma losing all my cool - you make bad feel so good
I'm about to break the rules - about to break, about to break the rules
I, I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad look so good (ah ah ah ah)
I've got things on my mind
I never thought I would
I, I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad feel so good - so good
I'ma losing all my cool
I'm about to break the rules
I, I wanna be bad

so nice! whee!

2005-06-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

sighhh. i'm feeling depressed. i cannot bowl welll!! and fluffy is sickk. she keeps vomiitting and having diarrhoea. ya. dont know la. sigh. i better train well la. i can bowl at warren. but i cannot bowl at occ! ya. hahaha. i must cherish my training time. ya. cannot play anymore! i want to be in the second teamm. i dont think i can be in the first team la. ya. that's like IMPOSSIBLE. sigh. i hope my new bowling balls would REALLY HELP ME. yar. everyone said i've improved ALOT ever since i got that two bowling balls. ya. like the power and speed and everything. ya. i can bowl during trainings but when it comes to competition, i die. really really die. ya. sigh. i have to write ching lee's letter later. i better mans. later she scold mee. then i'll die. yup. and i have to study too. i cannot go out today. have to look after fluffy at homee. but i feel like sneaking out of the house! AHHHHHHHHH... it's so temptiinnng! hahah. yup. sigh. i'm bored. i'm depressed. i'm stupid. i'm lousy. i'm dumb. sigh. WHY IS EVERYONE IN PERTH? i want AGNES! she's so nice to talk to. but she's not in singapore! she's in perthh! i wanna go outt. haha. sigh. i didnt know nicholas tong goes to church! haha.

2005-06-04T14:45:00.000+08:00

i woke up many many times today. first, iris called me in the morning at 8! how early la. hahaa. if i didnt remember wrongly, yar. saying that she's going to board the plane soon. yup. haha. then after that, taugay called me. disturb me again! then she tell me colin wee bowled a perfect game. haha. i was like : oh. okay. haha. i was sleeping whats. of course no reaction la! then she was like: ehh. perfect game lehh. how come your reaction so funny one? hahaha. i was like. sleeping whats. hahaha. sigh. had tuition at 11.30. and i woke up at 11.17. sigh. tuition was fun today. i learned ecology. how easy la.! just like what we learnt in primary 6. DAMN EASY. but loads of stuff to memorise. but they're mostly common sense. haha. today got masters and interclubb. and i cant go for both! haha. i didnt want to wake up so earlly. and then i have dinner tonight. so i cannot watch interclub! haha. yup. hahaha. sighh. i'm boreddd. i have to do work later. LOADS and LOADS of workk! sigh. i'm still sadd.

2005-06-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

i bowled very very very badllyy. really really badllyy. sigh. i didnt get into masterss. i am very depressed. yup. that's all i know noww. sigh. everyone is trying to cheer me up. haha. that feeling is so nice! hahaha. but then rights. i cannot cheer up. i dont know what happeneed to me. i just couldnt bowl. i couldnt find my linee. sigh. but comparing last year's scores and this year's, i've improved TREMENDOUSLY. i dont know if i spelt it corectly but haha, nevermind. 128 average. how nice. for 12 games! that's like freaking lousy la. and my juniors beat me. how nice. i bowled damn badly already la and SOMEONE just had to rub it in. and make me cryy. my face wasnt red after a while. thanks to huierh. haha. she splashed water on my face! haha. how fun! haha. i'm going to train haard! yes i am! haha. and i will bowl well for c.div. i dont even think i'll be bowling la. haha. so lousy. sigh. i must improve! yupp. sigh. i'm VERY DEPRESSED!

2005-06-02T09:11:00.000+08:00

i bowled VERY badlyy! die la. i'm damn scared now lehh. i'm like crashingg? hahaa. shit. my only hope is on friday! i better bowl well! at least a 170 average? yar. i have to get that. if not i'll DIE. really diee. arghhh. 9 games and my average is only 127! that's freaking low la. argh.

2005-05-31T22:50:00.000+08:00

sighh. i'm VERY depressedd. sigh. i went to northpoint today. yup. and i bowled so FREAKING BADLY! sighh. 118 average lehh. wahlao. for my singles, overall, my average is 130.5! shit la. DAMN LOW la. arghh. sigh. i dont wanna blog anymore.

2005-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

wickkey wacky! i changed my template. haha. yar. nice rights? hahaa. sigh. today i had tuition. a new tuition teacher. he's super funny and i guess he's good. yup. he said my english was good. only needed polishing. yup. haha. national age group is tomorrow! AHHHH! how? die la. i'm damn scared i'll crashh! i know i won't. yup.haha. must have confidence! hahaha.

2005-05-28T17:59:00.000+08:00

sighh. the holidays are finally here? i dont think that's my mood now. haha. i dont even feel relaxed! i feel like it's still like those ordinary school days and like i still have to go to school. still have training and still have to study! AS USUAL?! haha. yar. i'm very scared! like what if i dont bowl for c.div? what if i dont do well for final year? what if i start to fail all my tests in the third and fourth term? all these are making my life so miserablee. sigh. and now i have more tuition. and i hope it would really help me. to puulll my marks up. i want to get As and Bs and no Cs. yar. sigh. i think the only C i can get is history. i cannot score for historyy. i can score for geog and lit. but i cannot score for history. yar. maybe next year i shall do geog and lit. yar. haha. i have always liked history more than geog but it seems that i do better in geog than in history for SA1. yar. but i did better in history for CA1. yar. but overall, i failed history and passed geog. yar. my geog is better. yar! i shall do geog and lit next year. i am going to take lit! it's a definate! yar. haha. i LURVE lit. haha. yup. haha. sigh. i cannot do unseen prose. yar. it's easy sometimes. but for SA1. the passage was very dull and i couldnt write much. yar. haha. lit ahh. i must read the question correctlyy. yar. and understand it in the right way. yup. hha. for SA1, i misunderstood the question and wrote everything wrongly. haha. if not, i could have scored HIGHER! much much higher for lit. haha. yup. i better work hardderr! but i passed english for overall. yar. haha. by like very littlee. yar. hahaa. i am DEPRESSED! ahhhhhhhh...

2005-05-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

i lurve this song!! oohhh llaaalalaa.

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)
I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)
Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

dont you think this song rawks?

2005-05-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

TAUGAY is so poorr thingg. sighh. her last finger got SMASHED. haha. bone fracture. ahaha. get well soon taugay! haha.

sigh. interhouse is on thursday! AHHHHH. i'm going to die on thursday. we're going to get our report books back. HOW? haha. then wednesday, we're going to have the macRitchie run thingg. interhouse cross country. yar. sigh. i cannot run. i shall run SLOW. yup.hahaha.

i dont want to die on thursday. haha. i still have a bright path to walk. i'm really scared for english. sigh. i failed english larh. how bad can that be? i'm very scared that i'll fail overall too. die larhs. i need to work hard. yup. haha.

i'm depressedd. once again. sigh. i dont feel like living anymore. i cannot do well in my studies. sigh. i guess if i dont do well for my academic, then i shall go and study music. yup. that's the best choice so far i guess. yup. i cant copee. yup. i can't. no point studying so much and keep failing and keep feeling depressedd. not fun at all. haha. sigh.

had trraining today at SAFRA. the one at telok blangah. yar. i didnt bowl that badly. yup. uncle john was telling us about the test thing. if you strike, the answer is right. if you get 7 or 8 or 9, then you're almost right. then if you get gutter, that means that the answer is wrong. yar. haha. then for sparing it's almost the same.
it you spare, the answer is right. if you never spare, the answer is wrongg. yar. haha. how interesting. haha. but training was rather fun today. lesser people more fun. HAHA.

i didnt collect my bowling ball today. coz i fell asleep. and my mother also. then we didnt go. sigh. i think i'll go collect it on wednesday. yar. that'll be simpleer.yar. sigh. i feel like dying. but hmmmm. i feell happy listening to the song. ehh. ' at the beginning'. yar. it brightens up my mood. yup. haha.

school is going to close for the hols soon. haha. and sec.4s are going to die on iris's birthday. hahaha. o levels. chinese onlyy. haha. sigh. chinese. i dont wanna talk about it anymore. my marks are deproving. not increasing. sigh. all Cs and Ds and Es and only one B for bio. haha. B stands for Biology. haha. and also stands for blardy. hahaha. see. i'm so 'smart'. yeah right. haha.

2005-05-22T20:45:00.000+08:00

sighh. haha. i'm happy now. sigh. owells. i've got a boyfriend. WOW! hahaha. yesterday's class party went on smoothly. until when some idiot was angry coz we prank call him. haha. some blardy petty retard. haha. we were like LAUGHING at the message he left in my mailbox. as in the eh. i forgot the name. haha. DAMN FREAKING FUNNY! so freaking immature. HAH.

owells. it was so fun until my aunt called and asked about him. thanks larhs. i was like crying until everyone like 'an wei' me. haha. the word is COMFORTED! hhahaa. sigh. my aunt ruined my party. but it was fun prank callingg. hahaha. the best one larhs. hha. but the worst one too. hahaa. i dont give a damn now. she can tell my mother for all i care. i am not going to care about whether she allows me to talk to guys or not. i'm just going to take things smoothly. yup. but i'm very sure i'm not going to be so close to my so called cousin anymore. thanks for betraying me. actually. it wasnt her fault. but then coz he called her house and my aunt picked it up, sigh. everything went down. thanks to my other cousin. sigh. life is not worth living. in fact, it's a torture. yup. TORTURE. worst than what those people felt during the japanese occupation! haha. HISTORY. haha. sorry. i'm mad. i cant forget what i learnt. yup. haa. arent i good? haha. *self-praise*. class party was so freaking funn. ahhaa. when jess did the call and everythingg. haha. and iris. shouting to the phone. asking him to GET LOST! haha. so fun. owells. i feel like someone who has just got a jab to make her crazy. yar. got some mad cow disease or something. haha. wait. it's MAG cow disease. hahaa. owells. i'm madd. haha. yes.i know i am. haha

i wanna bowll! hahaa. i have to go collect my bowling ball at uncle kenneth's shop sommeday. yar. i hope i can collect it tomorrow. after training. yup. haha. hope my mummy is free. and doesnt have anything on or something. yup. if not. i'll go to huierh's house! haha. then we can play first. haha. oopss. i'm so madd. haha. but owells. haha. i feel so free!!! hahaha. no more streesss. haha.

last night. i didnt sleep well. haha. mag took so much space and she kept moving. haha. jiahui was in the same situation. ahhaa. she couldnt move. haha. but owellss. haha. very funn letting jiahui, nic and mag to stay over. but too bad. they had to leave early. haha. and i didnt send them out. coz i was like half-awake and i didnt want to get out of bed. so like yar. hahaha. then they left by themselves. yup. hahaa. then mag didnt take home her cds. haha. sigh. loads of people left loads of stuff here. haha.and yesterday! haha. iris, mag, jiahui, pam, nic and other people. sorry cant remember, they were so fascinated by the tarot cards! oh myy! as if it was some super cooll thingg. haha. it can tell your fortune. ahahaha. but for mag, it was true kk. haha. mine was true too. the eventual outcome was so true! haha. i didnt end up with that guy! HAHAHAHHAA. i'm so lame. haha. but haha. i'm like so freaking happyy. haha. that everyone enjoyed themselves here yesterday i guess? haha. and jess. hhaa. with the phone call..

you rawk people. HAHAHA. i think i fell asleep listening to mag saying her story. ahha. coz the next thing was that when i woke up, it was 3:32 already. ahhaa. and i had to wake mag up. so she could move! haha. yar! then they woke me up at ehh. 6.40? haha. i was half awake. ahha. then i brought fluffy into the room and mag screamed. AHHAA. damn funny. haha. then nic went home at around 10 plus. yar. 10.30 i think. around there. yupp. haha. sighh. time passes so freaking fast. hahaha. owellls. this post is long. hahahahha.

we have training tomorrow. and i dont know if i can go. haha. need to ask my daddy if i can go to huierh's house. so they dont have to fetch me there. haha. make things easier. ahha. go together. and fluffy's going to be there! ahahaha. as in the other fluffy! yup. haha. owells. i better go. haha. stiff neck! AHHHHHH. hahaha. seeyaa. MWAH!

2005-05-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

shit larhs. HOW NOW? i failed englishh. shit shit shitt. arghh. how am i going to tell my mother. i passed everything so far execpt for english and for hannah. it's the other way round. sad for her. but sigh. she's so poor thingg. haha. i cried again today coz i failed english and i didnt do well for math. sigh. i'm getting all the Cs and Ds and only one B! no As. how bad can that be. sigh. i cannot score an A for history and home econs. it's totally impossible. what's not meant to be will NEVER BE!

2005-05-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

sighh sighh sighh. i did so badlyy!! AHHHH. I PASSED CHEMISTRY! YES! whee! 35/60! haha. just passed by 5 markss. oh myy. it's like ehh. 58.333333333333%. yar. that's damn low. but i was surprised i didnt fail. yar. haha. yup. then got back lit! hhaa. 38/75! haha. passed by half a mark. so freaking luckky. there were quite a number of failures in the class. and i'm happy that i passed lit! whee. our first major examination for lit and i passed it. haha. yup. but still not good enough. 50.666666667%. yar. but i'm glad i passed. coz i failed the very first test! haha. yar. but i think i'll fail my overall. coz i failed my CA1 but passed my SA1 by just ehh. 0.6%? haha. yar. then chinese. sighh. i dont believe i can get 111/200! blardyy hell. all because of my compo. i wrote OUT OF POINT. arghh. and MAG BEAT ME! arghhh. i'm angryy. AHHHHHHHHH. i cant even get A1 for chinese. sigh. this time, mag beat zhijing. sigh. how smart can mag get larhs. shitt. i better studyy harderr for end of the year and for like common tests in term 3 and 4. CA2 larhs. yup. haha. sighh. mathh. paper 1! 42/60! what kind of shit mark is that larhs. so many careless mistakes. sighh. that's like 70% alreadyy. and paper 2 is going to be so SCREWED UP! arghh. i'm afraid i will fail mathh. but everyone says i would get like eh. 40 plus / 60 for paper 2 which i have no confidence that i am able to achieve that. sigh. i'm an idiot. though i see myself as SMART? hhaha. smart in MY worldd. not smart in the REAL WORLD. yar. sighh. i'm so screwed! i better study hard manss. i'm scared that i'll fail english. and people in 2E fail english. shit. 2E lehh. smart class larhs. they fail then i what? i'll FAIL TOO! shitt. howw? i'm dumbb :'( no point crying now rights? haha. sighh.

2005-05-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

wheee! i'm going to drill bowling ball on thursday! hahaa. i'm sickk. argh. we're going to go through answers tomorroww. freakk. i dont wanna faill!! AHHHHHHHHH....

2005-05-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

i woke up at ehh. 10 today! yar. haha. and my parents left the house when i just woke up. i didnt even say good morning. ahhhh. owells. i need to ask them if my friends could stay over next wekk! hahaha. it's gonna be so funn. but owelllss. results are going to be outt. VERY SOONN! haha. yupp. owells. going to amanda's house later. haha.

2005-05-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

wheee! today's friday! haha. and it's like 7 more minutes till the next day! haha. owells. i slacked the whole day! hahahaa. i didnt pack my room. when i planned to. haha. owells. i'm scaredd. results! ahahaha. we'll only get back like on the last week of schoool? hha. yar. owells. i'm excited. haha. we have a 2M gathering next week! hahaha. and people are coming to sleepover i think. if my parents alloww. haha. owellls.

2005-05-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

yay! exams are over!! YAY!

2005-05-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

hahaha. today is WEDNESDAY! hahahaha. tomorrow is thursday! hahah. YAY. history is over and so is HOME ECONS! i never study home econs lehh. and i just filled in the blanks based on what word i thought it was suitable. yar. like cloze passage. hahaha. i wrote ALOT kkk. haha. like two ful pages for the four questions. yar. haha. everyone was like. WHY YOU WRITE SO MUCH? haha. i minus 5 marks for history already. for section A. the multiple choice. i got like 5 wrong already larhs! AHHHHHHHHH. i cannot fail history. hahaha. owells. i never check my workk then i never read the question carefullly again! AHAAHAHAHAH. i'm so freaking dead. haha. owells. i'm going out tomorroww! haha. yay! with agnes. and maybe iris and hannah. and i dont know who else. maybe MAG? haha. i want her to comee! hahahaha. yay! the more the merrier.haha. i want to know who is the 'US' iris is talking about! hahahaa. owells. i will know tomorrow! haha. chinese tomorrow. PAPER 2 and 3! hahaha. mans. i wanna do well for chinese. yar. haha.

2005-05-10T19:23:00.000+08:00

arghh. sighhh. i think i will fail chemistry! AHHHHHH. bio was okay today. surprisingly. hahaha. chemistry was blardy dumb larhs. that's coz i didnt know how to do and like yar. and i didnt study chem as hard as i did for bio. coz bio had more stuff to study and memorise. yar. and like for chem. there wasnt anything muchh. sigh. the proton question! AHHHHHHHH. i'm wrongg! i think i only got 2 marks for it larhs. argh. i see wrongly. read the question wrongllyy. blardy shit! argh. i hope i dont fail anything this mid-year. yup. haha. i hopee. not i AM. hahaha. sighh. i feel like just quitting my studies and lead a normal life. without any fears! yar. argh. i'm suffering from depression againn. haha. owellss. 2 more days and exams are going to be over! YAY! hahah. i'm mad. owells. ahhaaha

2005-05-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

math was blardyy freakingg hardd!! ahhhhhh... i must pass math! arghh. if not i cannot buy a new bowling ball!! arghh. hahaha. must do welll! hahaa. owells. science tomorroww. shit larhss.

2005-05-07T15:08:00.000+08:00

had no school yesterday! hahaa. i slacked the whole entire day larhs. hahaa. not really the whole day but yar. i slept from 2.30-6.15! hahaha. i am a pigg. hahaha. i went out with pammy yesterday. haha. went to cold storage to buy ingredients! ahahaa. and they didnt sell peaches. no more peaches! hhahaa. then went to have ice-cream for lunch! ahhahaa. i'm going to grow fat! ahhahaa. ice-cream. then i slept. hiyohh. hahaa. then had tuition at 6.30 yesterday.

had tuition at 11.30 this morning. and i couldnt recall the facts. yar. bio! arghh. the digestion thingg. yar. i couldnt remember! hahaha. owellls. i beetteerr studyy. haahaa. i'm scared for mathh. and science! history also. for chinese, hmmm. not really larhs. hahaha. history is the hard one! arghh. math hmmm. my graphs. they totally suckk. hahaha. science! i just need to memorise! haaha. and i cantt. haha. with music on. hahaha. i can forget about getting an A1! hahaha. i must get A1 for math, science and chinese. history. ehh. B3 can liao.! hahahaha. owells. mwah! i need to study liao.! :D

2005-05-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

YAY! today is thursday! and i don't have to go to schooll tomorroww. YAY! today was the last paper of the week. lit and artt. haha. i have taken 8 papers so farr. and i have 8 more papers to taken! that makes 16! AHHHHHHHH. owellls. lit was okay today. easier than expectedd. haha. art. hmmmm. the copying thing was also easier than expectedd. HAHA. owellss. i feel depresseeed. owells. i dont wanna blog liaoo. mwah!

2005-05-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

had geog and english todayy! hahahah. geog was quite easyy! yuppp. englishh. sighh. trickyy manss. haha. so blardyy irritatingg. cannot find some of the answers thoughh. hahaaha. stupid teacher set the questions so hardd. the cloze passage larhs! wahlao. about music and i couldnt answeer! i'm such an idiot. i feel like an idiot. i'm stupid. i'm dumbb. i'm borned likethat. haha. i cannot score larhs. must score for math and science. yar. and CHINESE! haha. that one arhh. i BETTER get A1. if not, i'll get hell. and math tooo. science. hmmmmm. easy to score thoughh. haha. but must still study too rights. at least get an A? hahaha. hiyaa. all A larhss. that'll be the bestt! hahaha. dream'on! owells. i better study lit noww. tomorrow got lit and art! and i cannot draw for nuts. though i got a handd. hahahaa. i cannot copy the damn pictureee. HAHAHAHAHA. <3 mwah mwah mwah!! hahaha. owells. i'm madd. i feel highh!

2005-05-03T14:00:00.000+08:00

today was the first paper. sighh. english was okay. perfectly fine. for chinese, compo was perfectly fine. but for letter writingg! AHHHH. shit larhs. i didnt know the meaning of this word and i forgot that i had the dictionary with me. which i could refer to. ARGHH. i'm so dumb. i think i wrote out of point! how? arghh. blardyy hell. i cannot fail letter writing! hahaa. i failed last year kkk. coz i wrote like the address, person's name etcc. those stuff all wrong! AHAHA. yar. that was like so freaking terrible larhs. ARGH. there's geog and english paper 2 tomorrow. hahaa. sighh. GEOG! AHHHHH. must memorise. hhaa. owells. i better go and bathe and studdyy! hahaha. must study for lit also! hahaha. that one is the killer. hahaa. <3

2005-05-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

falling in love is just that
falling
out of control
of your heart and your soul

falling in love is just that
falling
that's how it feels
falling head over heels

why love when love hurts?
why love when love ends?
i know how it feels
when it turns and pretends
it ends with the plan
and the making amends
why love when there's
peace in the making of friends

losing your heart is just that
losing
too high a cost
when it's given, it's lost

taking a risk is just that
taking
been there before
i cant take it any more

why love when love hurts?
why love when love ends?
i know how it feels
when it turns and pretends
it ends with the plan
and the making amends
why love when there's
peace in the making of friends

whee! another essay? haha.

2005-05-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERLYN!

haha. my sister's birthday today! hahaha. and i had to studyy. HAHAHA. i have only lessons 10 and 11 to go for geographhy! hhahaha. then i can study lit and then yar. that'll be tomorrow's plan. yupp. cannot slack liao. i cannot fail geog. at most, next year, i take history thenn. hahaha.

i'm scared i will fail SOMETHING for mid-year! AHHHHHHH... the more i think about it. the scarier it gets. hahahaa. owells. i want to sleep liao. but it's only 11.12. so earlyy! AHHH. i am going to die! HAHA. drink COFFEE. haha. that'll help ALOT. hahahaha. i wanna go and study liao.

MWAHH! <3 <3

2005-04-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

today is already saturday and i havent finished studying for any subject yet! ahha. ahhhh. shit how? i stil have ehh. lesson 5,6,7,8,9,10 and 11 to go for geography! hahaaha. and geog is the first ehh. paper? like the one which i need to really studyy. yar. hahaa. 7 more lessons. but they're easy i guess. need to think and elaborate only larhs. and for lit! haha. i need to read too. i still have act 2 -5 to go! ahahahhaa. shit larhs. i need to burn midnight oil tonight again! hahaa. owells. <3

2005-04-29T17:16:00.000+08:00

it's friday finally! AHAHAHA. but i am not happyy. haha. coz that means that exams are coomingg! AHHH. it's next week for your information. ahaha. shit. how? i only have today, tomorrow, sunday and monday to study. hahaa. good thing that monday is a holiday. yar. hahaa. owells. have to study. it's my sister's birthday on sunday and we're having a party. can you believe that? likethat how to study? sighhh. i will just go and say hi to my relatives then i'll go back to my work. yup. haha. owells. it's just a party for my sister. and it's her birthday. not mine. yar. haha. MINE is like in so many months time! HAHA. 18th december! hahaha. HINT HINT> owells. why am i talking about birthdays now? ahahhaa. owells. i better study now. but before that. i should go and grab a bite. haha. and sleep then i wake up and study. then i can burn midnight oil. haha. so funn. whee. HAHA.

2005-04-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

it's already thursday and i have not finished studying for mid-years! AHHHHH! i'm going to die! haha. i ccannot fail any subject kk! esp. english. i'm scared that i'll fail. how? sighh. i cannot fail anything! HAHA. so i must study hard. haha. owells. i'm beginning to be nervous. haha. i was happy this afternoon and i even took an afternoon nap before my tuition and my piano lesson. ahhaa. sighh. i know i can do well. that's only if i study.yup. haha. owells. talking about yesterday. hmmmm

taugay came over. and we did math. haha. i feel asleep halfway. hahaha. i was so sian. haha. then taugay did her work while i went to sleeep. haha. i sleep from ehh. 3.10-3.15 and from 5.25-6.00 i think. yarr. hha. then taugay went home at 6 plus. haha. fun doing work with her. haha. she was like arguing with me!hahaha. then after that she found out she made a mistake. HAHA. so funny. HAHAH. owells. i feel like studying. but i dont want to. it's already 9.56 and it's late. yup. i wanna sleep sleep sleep! haaha. yup. owells. i will study tomorrow. yup. must study geog tomorrow. oh yes. science too. haha! have to do my tuition homework. and i must study and know my facts first before i can do my tuition homework. yup. my teacher say cannot cheat. haha. i guess i will cheat. hahaha. how to finish so many chapters in just ehh. half a day? yar. i have chapter 3,4,5,6 and 12. hahaha. owells.

good night people. it is late liao. haha. 9.57! whee. <3 <3

2005-04-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

today is tuesdayy. ahhaa. sighh. i lurve this song! it's called superman. hahaa. sighh. i lurve it and i can play it! *self-praise*. haha. owells. i am glad. haha. i am happyy! haha.mag asked me a very weird question todayy. yupp. hahaha. sighh. i couldnt answer her coz i didnt have the answer! haha. DUH? ahahah. owells. i dont feel anything now. i only feel that i am suppossed to study hard and to do well for mid-year and to not fail any subject. haha. sighh. all my CA marks are all barely passes! AHHHHHHHH. i gotta WORK WORK WORK hardderrr! hahaha. yup. but i guess it's too late! it's already tuesday and today's the 26th of April. that's like so close to exams. which is next weeek. sighh. sec.3s have started their exams. haha. so fast! hahaha. i still have less than a week? haha. i cant wait for exams to be over. haha. sigh. exams havent even started and you're thinking of what to do when it's over! haha. i am going to be so happpy when mid-year exams are overr! haha. i wanna go outt! OUT OUT OUT! haha. but wait. exams are comingg. yup. so cannot slackk! WHEE! <3

2005-04-25T16:49:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHH! today was a very bad bad bad dayy! because taugay didnt come to schoooll! haha. and there was no funn. haha. sighh. i have work to do and i dont want to do it. how? sighhh.

2005-04-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

i just got scolded. what the hell. then michelle and my kor cheerr-ed me up! haha. they were like : dont think too much. hmmm. wait. i forgot someone else. haha. i forgot PETRINA. haha. my dear darlinkk. ahaha. owells. i know . i studied today. i studied alot. yup. i studied history, chinese, chemistry and lit. yup. arent i guai? haha. and i did my work. yup. not all the homework. but like the ones i need to pass up tomorrow. yupp. haha. sighh. this matter is not going anywhere. sighh. i cannot feel sad. the more i think about it, the more i will cry. and my faace wil be red. then my mother will ask what happen. and i will have to tell her EVERYTHING. which i dont think i should. yup. my mother cares but the only thing is that she doesnt care about these kind of stupid things. and my father, sighh. he doesnt give a damn about what i do everyday. yup. i dont see him everyday though. but i know he's working hard there. to make money then he can buy me stuff. haha. yup. owells. i feel great! haha. after pouring everything out yesterday to my mei and my kor. haha. so funny. they're like hmm. you're not in the wrong. haha. owells. i better go and sleep now. haha. i have school tomorrow and it's going to be BORING! HAHA.

2005-04-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

today is sunday! AHHH. tomorrow is monday! so fast. one last week and it's already mid-year exams. haha. sighh. owells. i feel guiilty. coz i never follow the time management thingy. i didnt study on friday. haha. so i have not studied bio. sighh. then yesterday. i never finish studying history. then i studied history just. i just hope i can finish what i am supposed to do by today. yupp. as for bio. hmmm. i'll try to start on it first. then slowly cover it up. yupp. then i can finish studying. EVERYTHING! yupp. hahaha. didnt go for bowler of the month today. haha. wanted to but thought, maybe i should study at home. haha. it's raining now. haha. i dont want to think of other matters now. coz everyone tells me not to think about it. and focus on my studies. studies comes FIRST. yupp. than those stupid freaking matters. yupp. angry then angry larhs. if life is going to be likethat, i would just let it be. yup. you can treat me like a punching bag. when you're happy, you talk to me. when you're sad and you're feeling lonely, you will come and find me. what shit is this larhs?! yo dont even give a damn about how i feel! this is totally stupid. plain stupid! arghh. i feel like i am just a backup. when you're sad, you'll find me. when you're happy, you dont give a damn about me. arghh. dont wish to say anymore. thanks alot guys. for cherring me upp. XD. and helping me find the light of hope.

2005-04-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

this is the fourth post! haha. for the day! haha. sighh. i have alot of things to say today! haha. owells.

i feel HAPPY now! dont feel so depressed anymore! HAHA. after pouring everything out to my sister and kor! ahha. i said the same thing over and over again. MANY TIMES. hahaa. i will feel much better tomorrow! yup. i will tell zhen. haha. i feel happy! and high! haha. no mood to study anymore! HAHA. i have to study history tomorrow then. have to wak e up early! AHHH....

2005-04-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

i forgot to say something.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN!

MY DEAR SENIORR. LURVEYOUU. MWAHH!

2005-04-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

thinking of these things are just plain stupid. really stupid. sigh. no point thinking of getting back to the way we used to be.

arghh. i am blamed once again. for something i never did. wow?! i am not guilty of what i have done. i am not. owells. some poeple just think that i cant do without tthem. but if you're seeing this post, well i want to say that i CAN do without you people. it's only YOU who thinks I cannot do without you.

i have tolerated you for so long that i cannot take it anymore. like what i said. this feeling is unbearable. yupp. it's too late to realise how i feel. but i forgive you. owells. i will just take that nothing has happened. owells. what can i do? i dont want to say anything anymore. i will just let nature to take its place. yup. it's no point seeing each other and just pretend to talk and be nice to each other when we actually hate each other! what the hell am i saying?

these stupid matters are giving me a headache. sigh. this feeling is worst than anything else. i may seem to be in good mood but it really hurts inside to know that you've said all these things. which are not true at all. the fact is that. you're exaggerating to get attention? to tell you, it's not worth it. sigh. i never said i hated you. i just wanted you to wake up from all those illusions. sighh. it seems like you've not waken up from your dreams? owells. school has brought me enough stress. and now adding you. you're just making me ffeel worst! sigh.

it is a good thing that i still have other friends who are caring and understands me better than you. sigh. you're just a waste of my time. my precious time which i really can make use of to do other things. other things which are more interesting. you're just a waste of time. sigh.

both of us are not in the wrong. it's someone else. someone who has been the 'third party'. sigh. she has totally changed you to another person. you have always scolded me for buying stuff and spending my money like it comes from the sky! wells. now. think about yourself. are you worst than me? in fact. you are. the heartless creature i have ever seen. HAH. owells. you beetter do some soul-searching. that 'third party' has really made you become a person i had NEVER dreamt you would be.

2005-04-23T13:37:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 9.30 today. AHHH. i saw the clock as 10.30 larhs. i was late! haha. then i jumped out of bed and i found out it was only 9.30! so frustrating. owells. i had enough time to eat breakfast and to bathe today. haha. before going for tuition at 11.30. usually i wake up at 10.30 and i have to rush. HAHA. i was guai today. i did work during tuition. i did alot of work. yupp. i did more today than i used to during tuition. yup. i always slack during tuition but today was a total different story. AHA. i did workk. YAY. i feel happy having done so much work! HAHA. owells. i have to study laters. yup. follow the timetable. i must be guai. GUAI! hahaa. yar. got math, geog, history and lit to study. actually. math dont need to study. yup. owells. hahah. just needa practice. yupp. " never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game" hahaha. owells. this phrase really makes sense! yupp. haha. i like this one. haha. and ehh. ' waiting for you is just like waiting for rain in this drought'. it's nice kk. hahaa. owells. i shall go and study now rights? hahaha. must be determined. 'determination is the key to sucess!' yupp. mans. this really looks like literature. haha. unseen prose. all the quotations! HAHA.

2005-04-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

why must i always get accused for something i never did? i'm always getting defeated! this is so not fair. why is this happening? havent i gotten enough stress? over school work and other personal matters? sighh. life really sucks. lurve really hurts. it truly hurts. but it's not all about lurve here now. it's all about other stuff. stupid stuff i must say. it's not worth crying for. sighh. i dont feel guilty. why should i? hao xin mei you hao bao! sighh. some people are just so unreasonable and unforgiving? they do not understand how others feel? and they only care for themselves. WOW! i can do that too. but i'm too 'fragile'. sighh. i cannot be hard-hearted. i must be nice. sighh. i cannot sleep at night. thinking about all these personall stuff really makes my brain shiver. it's like adding loads more stress in! argh. i have enough of this. i can lead my life without you people. sighh. i dont have to depend on you all to live. sighhh. friends are friends. i dont care if they're angry. but cousins. wow! i dont get it. really? havent this woke her up? whatever i said? i just pity her. not much of her. but her parents. sighh. i feel stressed up! i need to find someone to say everything out! i am bottling everything in my heart. i cannot explain. this feeling is unbearable. i cannot hug my pillow. it doesnt help. crying doesnt help too. all those just DONT WORK. hugging your pillow is just too soft! sighh. things may seem pretty fine but they're not. why do i always end up crying? what's not meant to be will NEVER be. so dream'on. your wish will never come true. why are you always making me more depreessed? mid-years are here. i dont wish this unbearable feeling to affect my exams marks. i want my A1s! i really want them and i do not wish this unbearable feeling to make my dream fly away. i have been blamed for alot of things i never did. sighh. the unbearable feeling really makes me hate that person even more or maybe it's better to just die? sighh. i cannot give up hope just likethat. it's not worth it. i lie on my bed at night thinking about all these personal matters. cant god just give me a peace of mind to just study for my exams and do well? sometimes i really feel that i should just collapse and die. on the spot. and everything would be gone. all gone. sighh. this is not right. yupp. but i just cant stand it any longer.

2005-04-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

HAH. today is friday. MY BACK IS ACHING! EVERYWHERE IS ACHING! did pft yesterday. and i'm aching EVERYWHERE now! AHHH. sighh. every day passes like a second! ahah. that was exaggerated. owells. had training today. yupp. was quite nice. yup. the lanes were MY lanes. DAMN NICE! hahaha. mans. it was fun doing the line thingyy. yupp. didnt get all 100% though. yupp. owells. i feel like i have improved. haha. looking at how i bowled today. i have confidence in myself. yupp. now it's time to study for mid-year exams. my focus is that now. sighh. did time management and goal setting during CME. yup. haha. mrs lim said it was realistic. yup. how do you spell realistic? haha. i forgot. owells. haha. i must strive to do all the work that i set for myself. yupp. and i must STRIVE to get the grades i am aiming for. hahaha. sighh. must get A1 for MATH,SCIENCE and CHINESE! haha. MUST MUST MUST. those subjects are the easiest to score larhs. yupp. esp. math. if you know your concepts and for science, your facts. as for chinese. hmmmm. you need to know the words of course. and ehh. your zao ju! that one would really really help. so must MEMORIZE! hahaha. yupp. owells. i guess math and science are the easiest to score rights? yes. right. haha. chinese! hmmm. a little more challenging. yar. sighh. i wish i can do well for chinese. i need an A1 to pull my scores up. just in case i dont do well for end of the year. haha. seems so far but it's near you know. but before that rights, i must concentrate on national age group and ehh. C.DIV! sighh. c.div is like COMING! AHHHH. i am scared i dont get to bowl. how? sighh. must IMPROVE. and bowl well during trainings. yupp. cannot slack anymore. sighh. but first, exams! haha. yup. today's the last day of training. then we will stop for three weeks to study. yupp. sighh. i am scared i wont do well. HOW? sighh. that time i would really break down and cryy. it's not the end of the world if i dont do well. yupp. i still have CA2 and ehh. end of the year. so must do better! MUCH MUCH MUCH better! yupp. sighh. i feel lost. really lost. in classs, i cannoot focus. then during bio, i can sleepp kk. that's coz it's boringg. yupp. and coz i dont like the teacher. yupp. i like my chem teacher MORE! haha. she's fun. and i'm not saying who. yup. hahaa. owells. i want to say something. MATH is terrible. sighh. i needd more practice. tuition wont help! i needa practice! hahaha. sighh. okay. i need to study now. haha. lurveya. mwahh!

2005-04-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

LEE BAI's POEM

(Chinese Version)

Chuang qian ming yue guang
Yi shi di shang shuang
Ju tou wang ming yue
Di tou shi gu xiang

(English Version)

The moon light is pouring down on my bedside
Like white frost spreading on the ground
I look up the bright round moon in the sky
And lower my head thinking of my dear hometown

(Singlish (Phua Chu Kang) Version)

Bedfront Moon Bright Bright
Think Is Floor White White
Lift Head See Moon Moon
Bow Head Miss Home Home.

(Ah-Beng Version)

Bedfront Orr Pi Sai (pick nose)
Think Think Go Pang Sai
Pick Up Tai Gor Tai (handphone)
BS While Lau Sai

(Latest Reservist Army Version)

Bedfront Lau Bark Sai (tears drop)
Thinking About Exercise(reservist mobilization)
Drop Dead Look Into The Sky (run until no breathe)
Tong Kor Sia Lang Zai? (my heartache nobody knows)

(Osama version)
No friend at my side
Think think Bush will fight
Lift head but where to hide?
This time don't know when will die ?

(Bush version)
Can't sleep since that night
Think think where he hide ?
Bomb bomb friends will say I pai
No choice ask them go fly kite

Funny? HAHA :)

2005-04-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

HAHA. had pft today. the five-items test. HAH. owells. haha. i got a gold i think. just nice. 21 points! hahaha. and i never get a D! hahaha. i could have gotten one more point! haha. the damn incline pull-ups. HAH. i did 18 kkk. the teacher count as 17! argh. make me get a B instead of an A! hahaha. and the sit-ups too! i counted in my head too kk. and then the person helping me to hold my leg said i did 26 i think. yar. I DID 31! not 26! arghh. she counted wrongly. haha. she was like oh. sorry. haha. she didnt count properly i guess. hahaha. owells. i could have gotten so much more points! if i ran faster for both the 2.4 km and the shutter run. arghh. and if i jumped more for broad jump. HAH. hmmm.when i practice, i can jump 168-170 there kkk. how come now i cannot. i jump 160 ! arghh. blardyy hell. ARGHH. i wasnt focused! and paying attention. it's really wasted! AHHHHHHH... i need to traiinnn! REALLY HARD! owells. haha. my next focus is mid-year exams. and then traiining. yupp. sighh. c.div is coming. but national age group comes first. hahaa. sighh. must bowl well for national age group. HAH. and ehh. hmmmm. i am not sure if i would bowl for c.div. hahaa. if i bowl for both rights, i MUST bowl with ZHIMIN! hahaa. she has always been in my team. haha.and she can be an encourager sometimes. yupp. very nice person thoughh. X). hahaha. owells. i want to bowl well. which means i want to improve! haaha. i will buy a new bowling ball AFTER exams. that's why i cannot wait for exams to be over! haha. mid-year exams are in like ehh. one week time? i think. around there. after next week, it's the exams already! AHHHH. i dont want to fail any subject. sighh. must get A1 for math and my sciences. yup. then ehh. at least an A2 for chinese and eh. geography. yupp. and hmmm. for history, english and lit. haha. at least a B? yupp. hiya. what else? hmmm. art? HAH. i cannot draw for nuts. so like yar. i pass can liao. hahaa. project work. it's counted too rights. but we dont have a test for it. so like yar. hahaha. must do well. more effort is neededd. haha. i cannot slack anymore. but then rights, i CANNOT sit down and study for like eh. hours? yar. i must walk around and get something to eat and listen to music. that's how i study. HAH. i guess with music on, i cannot absorb anything and ehh. walking around waste time. yar. it will waste my precious time. HAH. like what mrs sim said today, a minute can help save a life. HAH. owellls. it can help me pass my exam too! haha. and HAH. if i was given one minute more for incline, i would have done ALOT more! hahaha. owells. sighh. and hiya. i dont wish to list everything out. haha. i know myself best! owells. i am going to relax now. then tonight i will study. HOPEFULLY. haha. must do the 10 questions. haha. hmm. this sounds fun! heh.

2005-04-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

sighh. today was such a bad bad day! hahhaa. hmmmm. i did my 2.4 km run today. and i didnt run well. i wasnt feeling well. haha. owellss. sighh. i still cant get over the fact that i ran so slow! ARGH. never mind. i still can gget gold.haha. i want to get gold! ahhaha. sighh. okay. i am tired. haha. i shall blog more about today tomorrow. yup. haha. more things to say. yupp. haha. owells. mid-year exams are coming. must mugg really hard now. haha. cannot day-dream anymore! haha. must PAY ATTENTION in class! hahaha.

2005-04-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

owells. i have finnallly did my lit homework. hahaa. yay! haha. i lurve loads of people! aahahaha. but i dont lurve someone today! hmph. so angry! x)

2005-04-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

who is this anon person? hahaha. training was quite fun today. yupp. i need to change bowling ball ! very urgently. sighh. i cannot bowl well! hmph. owellss. hahaa. project work sucks. i dont know how to do the damn report. hmphh. arghhh. i really have no idea what to write. hmmm. mine would be too short i guess. haha. okayy. i better go now. yupp. mwahh! i lurvee youu!

2005-04-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

I LURVE ALOT OF PEOPLE! HAHAHA. WHEE! hahahaha.

iris is next to me now. hahaa.

I LURVEE ....

iris. my sweetttiee.
jiayi. her 6th boyfriend.
huierh.
agnes. flufffayee.
zhenn.
char. my class chairman.
eunice. my class vice-chairman.
jiahui. the laughing queenn.
shanise. the prettae pampered gurl.
jessica. haha. the best dancer.
nana. sick in the mind.
jillian. the HAHAHA. gurl. ahah. she laughs very funny.
MAG. the person who sits next to me! hahah.
pammmy. the PENGUIN!
zhijingg. the person who laughs at no funny reason.
harrahh! the gurl who laughs at EVERYTHING.
ehh. my KORS and JIEs. like hmmm.
nicholas tong.
amanda han.
yarr.

2005-04-17T15:53:00.000+08:00

hahahaha. i have finally uploaded the pictures! hahahaa. so happpyy! hahaha. the family night one is so nice! hahaha. i am in lurve with it. hahahaha.

2005-04-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

owelllss. i want to upload the pictures from my camera! but the computer CANNOT DETECT THE CAMERA! arghhhh. i am going to print it out then. hmmmm. hahaha. owells. i feeel like cryingg. i cannot studyy. i am stresssed upp. arghhh. hahaa. i'm failingg. all my tests. recent tests. sighh.

2005-04-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

BITTERSWEET WAS FUNN! hhahahaha. the musicians were damn goodd. oh myy. i'm so jealouss. they can play so weelllll! hmmmm. daphne was gooodd! hahaha. and the MARS sang againnn. hahaa. JOY TO THE WORLD. ALL THE BOYS AND GURLS. JOY TO THE FISHES IN THE DEEP BLUE SEA, JOY TO YOU AND ME! hahahaha.

2005-04-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

HAHA. sighh. i have five blisters on my hand! arghh. so painnn. hahhaa.two of them are together. and they burst. BLOOD was gushing out of it kkk. arghh. so painfuull. hmmphh. sighh. just had training hahaa. I BATHEED! finallyy. hahaa. so nice. haha. going for bittersweet laters. yupp. with MAG! ahhaha. my darlinkkk. :D hahaha. owells. i better go now. haha. track and field meet was quite boring today. not as nice as the swimming one. alot of people weere injured. yuppp. that's quite sad larhs. haha. blackmore won for both b and c.divisions! *screeams*WHEE. we RAWKK. dont we? haha.

2005-04-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

CRASHED THE WEDDING

I'm so rushed off my feet
Looking for Gordon Street
So much I need to say
I'm sorry that it's on her wedding day

Cos she's so right for me
Her daddy disagrees
He's always hated me
Because I never got a J-O-B

Cos she's mine

And I'm glad I crashed the wedding
It's better than regretting
I could have been a loser kid
Who ran away and hid But it's the best thing that I ever did

True love lasts forever
And now we're back together
Its as if he never met her
So we came back
I'm glad I crashed the wedding

The neighbours spread the word
And my mom cried when she heard
I'd stole my girl away
From everybody gathered there that day

Just in time

And I'm glad I crashed the wedding
It's better than regretting
I could have been a loser kid
Who ran away and hid
I said I'd do it and I did

True love lasts forever
And now we're back together
Its as if he never met her
So we came back
I'm glad I crashed the wedding

Don't wish she's being
Mad at me for taking her away
Cos anyway she didn't wanna stay
So please believe me when I say

She's glad I crashed the wedding
It's better than regretting
The ring she got was lame
She couldn't take the pain
She didn't wanna silly second name

True love lasts forever
And now we're back together
He might aswell forget her
And walk away
She's glad I crashed the wedding

It's better than regretting
The ring she got was lame
She couldn't take the pain
She didn't wanna silly second name

True love lasts forever
And now we're back together
He might aswell forget her
And walk away
She's glad I crashed the wedding

2005-04-14T14:50:00.001+08:00

sighh. i failed bio. haha. got back my paper yesterday! arghh. 6.5/20! that's really DIE! hahaha. i was sick that day. and i went to school and couldnt remember anythingg. argghh. blardyy sickness. what is this bug going on these few days? or perhaps, weeks? hahaa. i got 85 for chinese! hahaa. sighh. 3rd in class. hahaha. arghh. cant believe i lost to someone like lydia low. haha. maybe coz she puts in effort. hmmm. i never put enoughh. arghh. the stupid word larhs! i could have gotten one more markk. arghh. but then rights. i write that stupid word wronglyy. the word is there and i can still write wrongglyy! how careless can i get? hahaa. maybe if i got the cloze passage all right, then i would get 3 more marks. and if i studied for the test. haha. sigh. the arranging of sentences was HARD. haha. i got 6! hahaha. arghh. i could have gotten 96 larhs! so blardyy irritatingg. hahaha. if i studied harder, i would have gotten al the han zi right. then everything would be right and then only the re-arranging of sentences would be wrongg. ARGHH. so blardyy FRUSTRATING. hahaha. sighhh. but i'm happy i got full marks for zao ju. haha. yar. i was like WOAH! hahaa. sighh. must work harder. i must get A1 for chinese! CHINESE IS MY ONLY TEST I PASSED. i have not passed any test for a LONG LONG TIME! hahahaa. i sound liike a failure. ahhaa. maybe next time i can work in China. hahaa. help my daddy! haha. whatthehell am i saying? hahaha. too young to think of all these. hahaa. i feel like giving up my studies and then i go study music. music is hard. much harder. but then rights. i am grade 7 already. i have seen it all. haha. sighh. too young to make such big decisions. haha. i must strive to do better. cannot fail anymore. haha. i must pass history test. haha. sighh. NOT ENOUGH time.. hahahaha. what the hell larhs. no time. then i couldnt write fast coz of my blisters. 5 on a thumb. haha. COOL RIGHTS? hahaha. mans. i guess i have to bathe now. haha. just came back from school. going to have tuition laters. i havent done my homework yet! ARGH. how? ahahaa. tomorrow got track meet. yupp. excited! haha. but it'll be freaking hot. hahaah. but then rights. hmm. have training and bittersweet tomorrow. hahaha. so excited to have training. but wait. with my finger like this how? arghhh. hmmm. should go and put plaster rights. hahaha. no. cannot. small cut onlyy. hahaha. owells. i betteer go now. LURBEYOU. MWAHH. haha. i LURVE IRIS. JIAYI.HUIERH.AGNES.MAG.CHAR.JIAHUI.PAMMY.ZHIJING.SHANISE.ZHEN! HAHA. my DARLINKKS! hahaha. iris is my sweettiee! hahahaha. one and only SWEETTIE. cool rights? haha. IT'S A FLY AND I'M GOING TO DIE! ahahaha. the stupid animted flash thinggy. haha. I LURVEE YOU 2M! hahahaha.

2005-04-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

oweellss. yay! family night is over! WE DID IT! we're done! hope there are no more stufff noww. yupp. though someone didnt come yesterday, but anyways. we still did it. sighh. everything is my fault. sighh. i really never do anything larhs. blardyy hell. i have no more voice. woke up this morning and i couldnt talk. sighh. hope i can get well by monday. sighhh. haha. had tuition this morning. i didnt talk muchh. couldnt. haha. my tuition was like : hiyohh. you should have cancelled tuitionnn. hahaha. i was like, i have missed so many larhs. like 2 weeks of tuition. so like yar. and if i cancelled tuition, i will start failing my tests. i failed like so many larhs. i failed lit, maths, geog and i think i'm going to bio. sighh. must really catch upp. oh yar. i failed history too. ssee. i'm like failing everythingg. except CHINESE! sighh. shit larhs. my marks are like going way down. and i cannot afford to fail any upcoming tests. all the more i cannot fail mid-year examm. sighh. i cannot fail. so i must studyy. sighh. do my notes. but coz of some matters in school, i dont seem to be able to concentrade. sighh. i must learn to ignore them. yupp. al the events are all over. oh yes. there is track and field meet this coming week. sighh. we're going to miss lessons again. we still have training this week. sighh. dont seem to be able to cope with my studies. sighhh. must learn to do workkk. arghh. cannot slack anymore. sighh. okayy. i think i should be a good gurl and go study noww. lurbeyouu. mwahh.

2005-04-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

sighh. i must reallyy sighh! we are FOURTH! ohh myy! sighh. we were always the CHAMPIONS but then now. we're FOURTH! sighhh. i am not happy. we could have won! sighhh. hahahaa. i am sadd!

2005-03-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS THE SECOND DAY OF B.DIVS! hahahaha. MUST BOWL BETTER! YEAH! WE MUST BE THE CHAMPIONSS! YEAH! hahaha. okay. i'm madd! hahahahaa. come'on B.DIV! you can do better than thiss!! YEAH! ahhahaa. we must be topp! hahahhaa. okayy. that's all i want to post aboutt. i have loads of worrk to do butt thenn. sighh. dont wanna do themm! heh. lurveya. mwahh!

2005-03-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

sighh. today was a longg longg dayy! hahaha. woke up at 10 this morning and had a freakin` heavy breakfast! haha. then went to my grandmother's house to get some tools to fix some stuff upp. haha. yar. then we went to Raffles Place for a while then went to parkway parade! hahaha. yar. went to popular first to buy everything we needed. then ehh. went to have a heavy lunchh. hhahaa. yarr. then we went to MPH bookstores and i finnallyy got my tarot cards! hahaha. it's freakin' cooll kk. haha. if not why would i even want to buy it? haha. lame! hahahah. yupp. then had chicken rice for dinner. hahaa. damn nice! hahah. at my cousin's house. hahaa. yay! we're going to have a barbecue tomorrow! haha. and ehh. maybe i might be going to the library! hahahahaa. to borrow bookss! haha. YAY! i have not been to the library for a very long timee! hahaa. yar. bought toto-chan todayy. the book is damn nice to read. hahaha. yarr. damn interestingg. heh. okayy. i'm going to bathe noww. lurveya. mwah!

2005-03-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

i seem to hate loads of people huh? sighh. i really hate my mother. she's the meani-est mother i've ever seen. comparing to my friends' mother. sighh. my mother is tottaally mean. she doesnt even care for me. only care for my damn sister. sighh. i just wonder if i am her daughter. or maybe just one that was adopted. that's why she's treating me like this! do you know how embarassing it is to leave a competition just likethat? with just two more games? sighh. i feel like a total idiot. having such a mother. but i still lurve my father. he's the best father in the world. a father who really cares and understands. not like some people. sighh. i feel like a jailbirdd. not being able to go out sometimes? sighh. i am like what larhs. mummy's girl? oh god! for goodness sake. i am not. arghh. maybe i should leave this family. sighh. i dont knoww what i should do next. i cant tolerate this any longer. i just wish i had a car. then i wont need to depend so much on my parents to send me home everytime. i know my father understands. when there's a delay, the game will end later! DUH? my father simply just understands me. that's mainly coz my father plays golf! so it's like the same thing larhs. but my mother? she's not in any sports. just simply living her life. and doesnt understand a life of a person in sports! i mean like yar!? if there is a delay or more people playing in a game, it would take a longer time to play one game rights? i dont think i would be able to go for bowler of the month anymore. sighh. maybe just to watch. but not to bowl! my mother is mean. people says she's nice and stuff. wells. dont judge a book by its cover! arghh. she may look nice. but inside, HAH! it's totally a different storyy! grr. i feel like an idiott! arghh. hahaha. sighh. i dont want to live anymore. but wait. it's not worth it killing myself. just because of ONE PERSON! hahaha. sighh. i am not going to care anymore. i will need to live my normal life. i cannot give up! YEAH!

2005-03-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

i hate my sister. i hate her to the core. why must things turn out this way? it's just going out to the damn playground! sighh. i feel so 'locked up'. sighh. i hate my sister. she's an idiot. a total idiot. my mother is biased. it's just not fair. sighh.

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus:
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus
Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus
We both know
It's better if we just let it go

2005-03-09T19:34:00.001+08:00

had training todayy! hahaa. was quite fun larhs. hahaa. yupp. today was quite a boring day. had chemistry SPA test! yup. it was like TERRIGIBLE kk. haha. so damn freakin` hard. yupp. something is wrong with my bowling ball! hahaha. guess what. i lurve someone and i hate someone. hahahaha. that's so cool. heh. they're not the same personnn! hahaha. yup. have to go for netball finals tmr. hahah. not to play but to SUPPORTT! hahahaa. yup. dont think it's gonna be fun. hahaha. but it's fun cherrringgg! hahahaha. yupp. the bowlers rawk! dont you think so? yes. i know you do. hahahaha. okay. i lurvee this songgg! hahaha. one last byy taufikk! hahaha. and many moree too. hahaha. enjoyy! hahaha.

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus:
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go
Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus
Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus
We both know
It's better if we just let it go

2005-02-13T16:57:00.000+08:00

today's sunday! sighh. tomorrow's monday! hahahaha. VALENTINE'S DAY! hahaha. i've bought ROSES! hahaha. for people!! hahahah. yay! hahah. anyways, played mahjong yesterday!! hahaha. I WON! yay! and blackjack too! hahaha. i won BOTH! hahaha. i am an expertt! hahah. *self-praise*. hahaha. went to collect roses just now. haha. luckily, penguin was there to help me, or else... ehh. i dunno how. hahaha. it was a lot kk. hahahah. how to carry to school tomorroww? sighh. i am so dead! hahahaa. people will think i am mad! haha. bring so many flowers to school! yepz. haha. anyways, i have to do lit noww! hahahaha. damn lit newspaper article thing! hahahaha. lurveya. mwah.

2005-02-09T18:02:00.000+08:00

heyy. today's the first day of chinese new year! hahaha. had a tiring and long dayy! hahah. went to visit the important people! hahahaha. ate at every house! mans. damn full now! hahaha. collected ang bao todayy! yay! hahaha. i'm crazyyy. yepz. yesterday had renuion dinner! hahah. everyone had renuion dinner! hahaha. was quite fun larhs. the food was nice! xD. hahaha. went to the temple this morning, to bai my ah gong! time just flies. it's chinese new year againn! hahahaa. tomorrow will be a better day for all of us! yupp. lessser people to visit. there'll be people coming over tonight! haha. all the grands.. and the uncles as well as the aunties. haha. sighh. another gathering this year! this time it's at my house! ahaaha. my mother's side will come together again! the house will be so noisy. but the more the merrier. heh. hahaha. yupp. it'll be quite fun larhs. hahaha. going to collect flowers this sundayy! hahaha. for valentine's dayy! yay! hahahha. okayy. i gtg now! SLEEP! haha. i really need itt! yupp. lurveya.mwahh.

2005-02-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

today's saturdayy! haha. tomorrow's sunday! hahaha. so fast! haha. i am going to buy roses to give people on valentine's day! haha. that's coz they're buying for me! haha. yay! haha. anyways, i am a lil' camp sickk. miss all those times we had funn! hahha. all the screams and the cheers and eh. yar. haha. and the instructors too! sighh. haha. they're like so nice and fun to play withh! hahah. and bully too! hahahaha. monday's got school! sighh. then tuesday's a halfday i suppossee. wednesday and thursday no school! but then! friday's got school!! arghh. can we not go to school on friday? hahaha. it's no use! one day onlyy! hahaha. that's coz i dun wanna pass up my english narrative story thingg! hahaha. i duno how to do. haha. i am going to ask people! ahhahhaa. yupp. i lurve monster sweet! hahaha. my tongue, teeth and lips were all blue just now! haha. red and purple doesnt work for me! hahaha. they dont turn my teeth and lips red or purple. orange and green too! haha. grrr. only one colour is the best! hahah. BLUE! haha. i thought red would work. but it din! arghh. hahaha. BLUE! yay! haha. it has been blue colour for about 3 hours alreadyy! hahaha. still as blue as everrr! hahaha. doubt it'll come out till maybe tomorrow? haha. my teeth and lips are no longer bluee. hahaha. they're normal! hahaha. i like this song! by guy sebestian! angels brought me here! hahahaha. so nicee! hahaha.

2005-02-04T13:49:00.000+08:00

heyy! i'm back from campp! hahaha. yay! haha. camp was SUPER DUPA FUN! haahha. the first day we reached there, we saw like how nice the place is! haha. i like the huts. so cute! haha. anyways, we slept on hard groundd! grr. hahaha. the first night, we played the 'kidnapped' gamee! hahha. blackmore tiggerrss are the bestt!! haahha. WE WON for that game! yay! hahaha. yupp. almost every game we scored full marks, only the egg drop, ehh. flag and the camp item, we lost to people! haha. the rest was pretty okayy! haha. anyways, we were the championss! hahaha. and the best groupp! hahaha. mans. i feel soo highh! hahaha. we had to roll in mudd kk! eewww. hahaa. not fairr! taugay din roll! grr. guess what?! you noe like after rolling in the mudd, my skin was smootherr?! hahaa. but it was totally digusting! hahaha. like the toilets were full of mudd!!! eeeyerr! hahaha. i din like the toilett! ahahaha. yepz. haha. anyways, i had a hell lot of funn!! haha. sleeping with our good friends! doing cheerss! hahaa. i left out somethingg!! hahaha. CAMPFIRE! hahah. you noe the shy-iest teachers in mg were miss tang and mrs poh! hahaha. so funny. then the strongest teachers in mg were mrs. f. lim and mdm teo. hahaha. and then the SEXY-IEST teachers were mrs kwan and mrs sim! hahaha. so funny kk! hahaha. i like the campfire songg!!! hahaha. so cool! just like a musicall! hahaa. like when they shout and stuff. haha. like mamamia! hahaha. i'm feeling soo high! i'm finally back! yay! can watch tv, sms people and stuff! not forgetting my computterr!! hahhaaa. i better go bathe noww! so smellyy! hahaha. lurveya! mwahh! hahah. i like the song 'say it isn't so' ahahaha. so nicee!! hahaha.

2005-01-31T21:05:00.000+08:00

heyy! today was quite a weird dayy! hahaha. i went to video ezy to return the vcd! haha. then i walked homee! hahaha. mans. it was like so longg! haha. but i made itt! hahaha. then i did my homework! and studied chinese! hahaha. then had piano lesson! arghh. did quite well. though i din practice! hahaha. talked to amanda on the phonee! hhaah. told me this stupid story! actually stories! hahah. damn funnyy! heh. about these two guys in her school, 1 and 2. cant say the name! hahaha. 2 was a bigger size then 1 larhh. then like those two guys were fightingg! thenn 2, bigger in size threw 1 into the recycle bin coz 1 was a short boy! hahaha. you noe those big recycle bins! ahhaa. they had one in the classroom. yar. the classroom must be quite bigg! hahaha. yupp. sigh. her school is super slackk larrhh! hahaha. everyday fightingg onee! hahaha. yepz. enouggh about thatt. got more stories. but lazy to type themm! hahaha. i lurrve the songg! angels brought me here. hahaha. so nicee! hahaha. okayy. lurveya. tomorrow got chinese testt!! hahaha. easy! ahhhaha. dont know if the test paper would be easy too! haha. lurveya. mwahh.

2005-01-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

heyy. this week is a quite bad week. sigh. so much workk. haha. dunno what's wrong with the teachers. is it becoz of the upcoming camp on wednesday? haha. sighxx. haha. i dun remember what homework i have! arghh. this is ridiculous. argh. haha. anyways, had training yesterdayy. haha. mans. my boone is so pain! hahaha. dunno whyy. haha. maybe i pulled my muscles again! grr. but now it's okayy. haha. yay! haha. we had a number of free periods this week. hahaha. was damn cool. haha. had our own conversations. haha. then there was this group that was talking about the three-letter wordd. haha. that was like so sickk! ahaha. lucky i din listen! haha. if not i'll be so damn freaked outt. hahaha. yay! i collected my cd yesterday! haha. dunno if i should play anott. hahaa. sighxx. i haveta study for chinese test now! luveya. mwahh!

2005-01-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

haha. yesterday was so funny at victors! haha. so funny. but i'm not telling you! coz it's private. yepz. anyways, yesterday, went to victors to watch bowler of the month. haha. was quite funn. ahha. i went home late. arghh. had a big scolding kk. mans. then i went to causeway pointt! hah. wow! so big! haha. like there are so many shops there. all the nice shopss. like ice lemon tee, 77th street. but there was no 37 degrees. went to jack's place for dinner. ahha. yay! had my favourite fish and chipss. haha. bought quite a number of stuff there. coz it was on sale and it was soo cheap. gosh. okayy. i got to be going for tuition. haha. havent done tuition homework yet kk. arghh. okayy. lurveya. mwahh. ohyes! i lurrvee taufikk! haha.

my favouritteee songg! haha. lurveya. mwahh.

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly In my heart

There's a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are
Doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause this race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dreamI can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream, I can be
The hero that's in me
I dream, I dream

There's a time, In your life
When the odds are so against you
There's no defeat if all you keep is pride
First or last, Slow or fast
There's a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when world's have come apart
Doesn't matter rich or poor
Or the things you've done before
Cause the race is all aboutBelieving in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream, I can be
The hero that's in me
I dream I dream!

Of a momentThat forever will be golden
When the torch is passedOnly dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

I dream
I can run
Like the windAnd be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream, I can be
The hero that's in me
I dream, I dream

2005-01-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

hello bloggie! haha. in the school computer lab now! haha. just finished the test! heh. mans. quite tricky lar. i must say! haha. had training yesterday and eh. i IMPROVED! haha. uncle john said so. haha. like my ball is no longer spinning! haha. it's the right way now. like it's BETTER! haha. mans. i guess taugay's angry with me for that stupid testimonial i wrote. haha. *ahem* wants to kiss *ahem* in the rainn! wow! so romanticc! aha. till now i've yet to find out who the hell mike is! arghh. that person is annoying me! blarddy hell idiot! haha. anyways, today's the last day of school for the week! haha. yay! i hope i can go watch bowler of the month tmr! haha. anyways, eh. i gtg now kk. see some other websites.! like friendster! maybe. haha. lurveya. mwah.

2005-01-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

heyy! haha. went to see doctor today! haha. sighx. lucky i dun have to go for scanning! haha. something's wrong with me! haha. anyways, school was quite fun todayy. haha. history was damn funny and so was maths! haah. anyways, got to do art now! haha.

2005-01-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

mans. the show is so sad. haha. watch the mr.right show this morning. so sad! hhaa. anyways, i woke up at 10.20 today! hahah. cool right? ahha. anyways, today's sunday! tmr's monday! so fast. have to sleep early tonight and wake up early tmr morning! haha. the cycle repeats! hahah. i can't wait till friday! haha. it's a public holiday so yar. get to sleep and wake up late. ahah. dun think i can go watch for bowler of the month. haha. no time and transport. haha. studied history yesterday but nothing went in. arghh. couldn't understand. was damn tired kk. well, i did my history worksheet though. haha. so have ta go study geog and history today! haha. got test on tuesday for geog and ting xie too! haha. got ting xie on tuesday! ahhaah. is tuesday that nice? hahah. lurve ya! mwah!